+…Black Rain…+
“Black Rain” from the Solo Album of Fuji Syuusuke @ Kaidah Yuki-san, <Eyes> // Tenipuri. “Kuroi Ame (The black rain), you’d really made it…”
SIN…. I finally understand the meaning of it. It was my entire fault; I don’t have to blame anyone. The sin I created has really paid off. I’m really, really sorry but it’s no use, it had happens & that’s the truth. For that sin, a priceless sacrifice is paid. I can’t or I shouldn’t blame anyone… it was all because of me. That feeling of being hurt, left out, betrayed…. I understand how much it kills the heart & yet I’ve done that. Blame for my carelessness, arrogant ness, bakaness.. I have nothing much to defend, but to regret for what I’ve done.
6th From Dinner Night ended today. I was quite satisfied with my dressing, even though I wasn’t wearing a skirt. Maybe others may judge my appearance of that night, but they won’t understand the reasons behind & I don’t need to explain either. “It’s okay, it’ll be fine…”
Feedback of our performance, from what I can see, overall this is the best comparing to the previous practices or rehearsals. I believe we had past the time limit (8 minutes) as some time was lost during the scene changing. However, one thing is for sure is… I’ve fail my own test. In my heart, I know I didn’t give my best shot. Those feelings~ anxious, excited, nervous, scared, pressured…… they had flooded my mind, blinding my consciousness. In the previous rehearsal, I did much better than this time, I’m really sorry… to my classmates. I won’t hope for forgiveness neither as I don’t deserve it. What past is past, no mater what it can never be changed. I just have to go on with it, forever crafted in my mind.
A wound made by someone with strong hatred, that wound will not heal, until revenge has been exacted. It may never go away…
