Since Last Goodbye~…
I didn’t know your influence is so great to me. Since the day you left, I’m always in the blue. I felt like something is missing in my heart, those unusual & uncomfortable feeling keep on haunting me. However, that had proved something. I’m really misses you all so much…always.
It was last December. The month of snow, it’s that season that I’ve met you. Just within a short period of time, I’ve fallen so deep for you. Encouraging me, supporting me… even changing my life. I’ve went to find a part-time job during my holidays, because I wanted to buy that Regular Jersey so much; My cat-lover feelings had grown more & I adopted a kitten, named Yuki (after Gravitation’s Shuichi’s lover, Eiri Yuki-san); Started to like tennis, wanted to learn it. Not only that, tennis had been already in my list. It’s the 3rd sport that I’ll really take it seriously & of course, love it very much too. (That’s the reason why I continue to F6, I wanted to learn tennis at school. Even though it wouldn’t be the same as our school system here is very different from where you are. I really like studying Elementary School, then to Junior High School, graduate & onto Senior High School. The life there is really my dreams but I understand that it’ll never come true, forever being my dream, as time will not turn back.) My passion for tennis, I’ll remember this feeling as long as I can. It’s the only power left to support me after you are gone. Your influence had changed me & my life so much.
On that day, I told myself that I’ll be fine, “It’ll be ok…” but actually, that’s a lie. I didn’t want to let you see that sad, worried me before you depart. That’s why those words…. I’m sorry. I weren’t able to keep that promised. I’m so lost, like a kitten being dumped away to the street. I didn’t know what I should do, nor have the courage to walk the first step. Just letting that loneliness, sadness swallowed me. Gomenasai… I wasn’t being my own self. I didn’t know your departures had such great impact on me.
After Tenipuri series had finally ended, I watched the 2 ‘special’ episodes subbed by Dattebayo & Shinsen-Subs. Both two were actually April Fool’s Joke. [**Warning! Spoilers**] Dattebayo subbed the final episode. It’s a joke about Ryoma-kun commit suicide in the end. I didn’t know at first, I though it was a normal fansub episode. But then as I watched the till opening song, it’s kinda scary~ they change the song. I know something is different with this episode. Therefore I watched till the end. (Sometime before, I read a post/spoilers asking that why Ryoma-kun died in the end & I understand now) As for Shinsen-Subs ones – The Truth Behind The Genius, that’s really a don’t-know-how-to-describe feeling. I really laugh so much, even choking while drinking. It’s a TezuFuji episode. Lol, BLness~ and I felt so guilty while borrowing that episode to my Friend (I believe she is naive to BL) >_< Haha, Shinsen-Subs really did it! It’s really a great joke to those who don’t really understand Japanese as the subtitles there were changed, fake ones. As for me, I’m still learning Japanese(still a rookie but can understand simple & short ones) & also had finished watching the series, those jokes doesn’t really put any much effect on me. Anyway, cheers to both fansub group! ^^v (I’m sure their trick/joke did work.)
Writing my feelings down really helped me much, I’m feeling much better. I’ll watch Tenipuri’s movie & Tenimyu someday later, with a good happy mood of course. Meanwhile, I’ve heard from a Chinese Forum, Greenland(China) & Youthful Days that there will be a Tenipuri 2nd Season (in OVA form) about the National Tournament & the most shocking one is Tenipuri Live Action! O_o OMG! I can’t really believe that…. I’m really looking forward toward the OVA (even though I can guess how the story would be, and my beloved Ryoma-kun won’t be there either, he’s in America. I’ll still cheer for Seigaku!) As for the Live Action, I just hope it won’t be what I’ve imagine. -_-;;; if not I may not even watch it. Well, it’s nite time~ 1.30am already) Oyasuminasai, minna-san~ oujisama…. ♥
“Since Last Goodbye” ~ Tezuka Kunimitsu’s single album // Tenipuri.
