Garden of Memories

     After having a delicious homemade Western dinner, I was so bored, nothing much to do but letting the time fly by. However, something interesting caught my eyes. That is the new movie of Lindsay Lohan – Herbie : Fully Loaded. Sometime before, I’ve heard & read the newspaper about it & really got interested in it. (Yeah, I like to watch Lindsay’s show too. ^^v) So, how about let’s watch it tonight? Of course, watching it together with my family members in the hall room.

     It’s really a great comedy & racing show. (P/s: Does Kelvin look alike like someone?? Lol, Suwabe Junichi-san’s image keep on appearing in my mind XD) So, what’s the important thing that made me wanted to keep some memories down here? Well, as I’m watching the movie especially those scenes where they are preparing for a race till the race starts, I felt so nostalgic~ some vivid memories of the past appeared. Yes, it was them - Hayato-kun, Asuka-san, Miki-san… those childhood friends.

     Future Grand Prix Cyber Formula, which is the 1^st ever anime I remember watching when I was a kid. It also had some special memories behind it. The anime which I grew up with, I as am Elementary School students till now; Kazami-san who continue his dad’s dream to ride, became he youngest champion at age 15 and till he’s 21 years. Those childhood days with them are really fun & precious. That’s where everything starts… my life into that world. I still remember vividly at that particular time, I was sitting at the hall room, watching CF GPX together with my cousins, it was that moment that made me wanted to learn Japanese. I still remember those words I said to myself, “When there’s a chance in the future, I wanted to learn up Japanese… so I won’t need any subtitles help.” Hehee~ that’s what the elementary student thoughts, ne?

     Even though it had been so many years we had been together, (so sorry that I don’t remember since when I met them, I was too young that time) but those past, memories of yours, always I’ll craft it in my heart forever~…especially those moments on the track. “Hayato-kun, Asuka-san, soshite minna-san, arigato gozaimashita…” Thank you so much for everything, those days were truly wonderful. Lastly, I’ll be looking forward towards the future, the year around 2022, the time where your story begins to shine…

     “Mirai no Kioku” ~ Memories of the Future ~ sung by CaYOCO, from the album CF Saga – OST Vol.1 // Future CF GPX.

     I didn’t know your influence is so great to me. Since the day you left, I’m always in the blue. I felt like something is missing in my heart, those unusual & uncomfortable feeling keep on haunting me. However, that had proved something. I’m really misses you all so much…always.

     It was last December. The month of snow, it’s that season that I’ve met you. Just within a short period of time, I’ve fallen so deep for you. Encouraging me, supporting me… even changing my life. I’ve went to find a part-time job during my holidays, because I wanted to buy that Regular Jersey so much; My cat-lover feelings had grown more & I adopted a kitten, named Yuki (after Gravitation’s Shuichi’s lover, Eiri Yuki-san); Started to like tennis, wanted to learn it. Not only that, tennis had been already in my list. It’s the 3^rd sport that I’ll really take it seriously & of course, love it very much too. (That’s the reason why I continue to F6, I wanted to learn tennis at school. Even though it wouldn’t be the same as our school system here is very different from where you are. I really like studying Elementary School, then to Junior High School, graduate & onto Senior High School. The life there is really my dreams but I understand that it’ll   never come true, forever being my dream, as time will not turn back.) My passion for tennis, I’ll remember this feeling as long as I can. It’s the only power left to support me after you are gone. Your influence had changed me & my life so much.

     On that day, I told myself that I’ll be fine, “It’ll be ok…” but actually, that’s a lie. I didn’t want to let you see that sad, worried me before you depart. That’s why those words…. I’m sorry. I weren’t able to keep that promised. I’m so lost, like a kitten being dumped away to the street. I didn’t know what I should do, nor have the courage to walk the first step. Just letting that loneliness, sadness swallowed me. Gomenasai… I wasn’t being my own self. I didn’t know your departures had such great impact on me.

     After Tenipuri series had finally ended, I watched the 2 ‘special’ episodes subbed by Dattebayo & Shinsen-Subs. Both two were actually April Fool’s Joke. [**Warning! Spoilers**] Dattebayo subbed the final episode. It’s a joke about Ryoma-kun commit suicide in the end. I didn’t know at first, I though it was a normal fansub episode. But then as I watched the till opening song, it’s kinda scary~ they change the song. I know something is different with this episode. Therefore I watched till the end. (Sometime before, I read a post/spoilers asking that why Ryoma-kun died in the end & I understand now) As for Shinsen-Subs ones – The Truth Behind The Genius, that’s really a don’t-know-how-to-describe feeling. I really laugh so much, even choking while drinking. It’s a TezuFuji episode. Lol, BLness~ and I felt so guilty while borrowing that episode to my Friend (I believe she is naive to BL) >_< Haha, Shinsen-Subs really did it! It’s really a great joke to those who don’t really understand Japanese as the subtitles there were changed, fake ones. As for me, I’m still learning Japanese(still a rookie but can understand simple & short ones) & also had finished watching the series, those jokes doesn’t really put any much effect on me. Anyway, cheers to both fansub group! ^^v (I’m sure their trick/joke did work.)

     Writing my feelings down really helped me much, I’m feeling much better. I’ll watch Tenipuri’s movie & Tenimyu someday later, with a good happy mood of course. Meanwhile, I’ve heard from a Chinese Forum, Greenland(China) & Youthful Days that there will be a Tenipuri 2^nd Season (in OVA form) about the National Tournament & the most shocking one is Tenipuri Live Action! O_o OMG! I can’t really believe that…. I’m really looking forward toward the OVA (even though I can guess how the story would be, and my beloved Ryoma-kun won’t be there either, he’s in America. I’ll still cheer for Seigaku!) As for the Live Action, I just hope it won’t be what I’ve imagine. -_-;;; if not I may not even watch it. Well, it’s nite time~ 1.30am already) Oyasuminasai, minna-san~ oujisama…. ♥

     “Since Last Goodbye” ~ Tezuka Kunimitsu’s single album // Tenipuri.

     “Sayonara” - (Single) Rajipuri Theme Song [Momoshiro Takeshi] // Tenipuri.

     Tonight is finally the final day. “That time~ this is the last…” Before I continue to watch, I was listening to all Tenipuri’s OP & ED theme in order, starting from the 1st OP – Future to 1st Ending - You Got Game & till the last OP - Dream Believer also the last ED - Little Sky.

     As the melody flows~ memories of the past slowly begins to gather in one piece. It’s really nostalgic. Starting from Future, that’s where the first time I met Ryoma-kun. That OP Clip is mainly focusing on him (that’s of course, PoT is mainly focusing on him ne?) Probably that’s where I got so obsessed with him & love him so much. >////< Kyaaa~~… Ryoma-kun suteki! And till Dream Believer, the clip again is focusing on him. This is the final time right? There probably won’t be any chances again. Ryoma-kun had grown up so much, of course others did too and Momo-sempai’s image appeared in my mind. Why? Well, he’s indeed the closers one to Ryoma-kun. They are always together, training tennis, playing doubles, eating hamburgers… (You’ll get to see this scene at the last few episodes. It’s so sad… *sniff*) their friendship is really heart-touching. (In the previous post, I did mention about the hints that I saw in the clip Dream Believer. You can view the pictures below, that’s the scene I’m reffering to. Pinpon! Yeah, my guess really hits the target. That’s the final…. ;_; )

     Here’s some images that I’ve promised to post it up. From the last Ending Theme of Prince of Tennis - Dream Believer.

• Ichinensei (All looking so serious…)
• Tezuka-buchou (Kakkoi,ne?)
• Ryoma : (i) Enjoying the sunset ; (ii)Drinking his fav Ponta (One of the best Ryoma’s pic. Looking so mature~…)

     The time has finally come~ … I won’t be writing like the 2 previous posts, I’ll keep these feelings deep in the heart. That’s the best. It had been about eight months since that day. Time passes so fast… I still remember the vivid memories that my cousin sis told me about them for the 1^st time. It’s the month of snows. That’s the first time I met my prince(s). Together with their company, I’m really glad that I’ve met them. They had taught me lots of lots of things, till I can finally stand up again by myself and walk the path I wanted. Always being such a great friend, giving me the courage, the support… Yes, they are my pillar of support. Someone so precious, dear to me that I didn’t want to let go off…

     As for today, it’s finally the day of your departure. There’s nothing that I can do to stop this, it’s a fact, a reality I had to accept. But the most important is still the days we share together. The laughter & the tears; sweet & bitterness, those wonderful days we had spent together~ that’s the best part of it. I will never forget the things that you had taught me. Yeah, I’ll be fine by my own. Daijoubu dayo! It’s gonna be OK. I will keep my style & walk on the road we had been walking together before, eventhough I’m alone now. It’s a long wayI know but with your stars shining brightly in my little sky, I believe I would able to go the place where I wanted. Spread the wings, fly high to the future. I’ll believe in my dream, someday I can reach there. I believe I’m able to meet you again, no matter where you are, I’ll search for you. That’s my promise for you. Thank you so much for everything…

…~Oujisama, ima made arigato gozaimashita!~…

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     Staying up late again, (around 3am now) continue on with Tennis no Oujisama. There are too much things I wanted to say, till I don’t know where I should start. I’ll just go on with my feelings from the episode I’ve watched, which are 166 till 174. Actually I wanted to finish it but I’m too tired for it. I’ll keep the 4 more last one for tomorrow’s night. “It’ll be the last….”

     ** Warning: Once more, this post DOES contain spoilers. I’ll be writing my feelings of that time watching. So I’ve warn you, stop reading this post if you don’t want your story being spoil. Thank you~ **

     Episode 166 – “Seigaku’s Speciality, Once Again” It’s time for Seigaku members to get ready for the National Tournament. A Ranking Tournament / Intra-school Tournament are going to be held, that’ll decide the National Tournament’s Regulars. Well in this few episodes, if you notice, you see that it has shown many hints for Tenipuri fans. That is – Tenipuri is going to end. Therefore, they are showing more scenes that fans would really like to see, eg. we can finally see Inui’s eyes, which is behind the glasses all these times. How the Golden Pair was form and matches between members that never been showed – eg. Fuji vs Tezuka. Yeah, it’s truly sad. When I’m watching, especially the scene where Ryoma’s dad, Nanjiroh received the letter from US. (I already knew some of the details because of the spoilers.) Just as Nanjiroh is reading about the letter, saying the words “US Open”, tears suddenly gathered around in my eyes… Ryoma’s going to America, ne? I got a bit angry too as all it stated because of that single letter, if not Ryoma wouldn’t be going.

     The story keeps on continue to show those hints & that’s making me more sad. I’m scared to bid farewell to them. I’m afraid of continue watching Tenipuri. That’s not the frirst time I’m afraid continue watching an anime because it’s ending may not be what I hoped for, like Tactics - the last episode. The preview shows that Youko-chan & Rosary-chan hugging each other, crying sadly. Kantarou also said “Sayonara. Arigato”. I though it was about Haruka bidding farewell to Kan-chan, but the story wasn’t what I imagined. Something I really never expected, and it’s so sad to accept that fact, the ending. I won’t spoil more on Tactics. Go watch it if you want to know more. Back to Tenipuri, I was really afraid while watching it. More ever, my heart (kinda) shivering too. All because I’m scared to know about the how the story is going on, how the ending is going to be. However, in this world there’s no party that would be on forever right? (That’s a Chinese proverb, I just translate it in English totally) Tenipuri is the same. One day it will end…. I had to learn to accept that fact, the reality. In fantasy, it can be forever, eternity.

     Drops of little waters had been falling continuously. The ending theme - Little Sky, which has a bit of sad tone, making me more emotional(sadly). Those were my feelings while I’m watching at that part. But I don’t want this kind of feeling to continue on. Do I want to bring my tears till the end? Will that be any good? No, yet I’ll be regretting it later, as I didn’t enjoy the last time being with my prince(s). I try to hold back my tears, sang the song, White Line, which is being played in the background that time Ryoma finally goes to America. Like what Tomoko-chan said, I should keep on smiling, that’s the best farewell gift I can give to Ryoma-kun. ^-^ Before that, I really hoped Ryoma-kun to stay and enter National Tournament. But that was really wrong, it’s really selfish of me having that kind of though. Thanks to everyone, I’ve got to cross that thinking. Well, my feelings are just like how Sakuno-chan felt. Ryoma-kun stated that he declines the US Open but in his heart, actually he wanted to go, ne? Also, my thoughs about reading those spoilers before had changed. If I hadn’t read and know how the story might be, I would be really surprised, depressed and many more negative feelings would appear too, as what I expected, hope isn’t what I get. But the spoilers had helped me some, I can understand, accept this fact within a short time. As I’m that kind of people which is takes much time to suit into a new situation I’m in or I’m given. I might be angry over the ending of Tenipuri & the worst might be I didn’t enjoy myself. Knowing about some storyline of Tenipuri during episodes near the ending, I can say it’s quite a good thing. I should have look into the positive side earlier. Hehee~ it’s okay now. Tomorrow night, I’ll be watching the final match, Tezuka vs Fuji. It’ll be one of the best matches ever in Tenipuri series. ^^v Hai, I’ll enjoy till the last minute, last second~… (to be continued……) [4.15am now, so tired~ tomorrow’s gonna be a big day too]

     “Crying Sky” – SR Samurai Solo Album, sung by Echizen Ryoma (CV = Minagawa Junko), “Little Sky” - ED Theme of Tenipuri, sung by Kentaro Fukushi. Actually I decided to put the title Crying Sky as I’m really depressed with the storyline going on. However as the story goes further, my feelings about it had changed. Therefore the title has changed too. -> "Crying Sky Little Sky" (Above had explained about that). The title shows my feelings too.

     There are so many things in my mind that I wanted to write them down right now. (It’s almost 3am here) Yeah, today is the day~ "the time has come…" It’s a day to celebrate, I think I can say that. The day I’m finally gonna watch all Tenipuri episodes. There are still 20 more to go but of course, I won’t finish them up in just a single night. I’m gonna spilt it to 3 days or so, tonight (just now), tomorrow and Sunday’s night too. ^-^ At last, it’s the time to end it all~      
     However, I’ll write some events that happen a week or so before, since that day we had our first debate (MUET lesson) in class. I’ve found something important after the teacher discuss with us about that debate presented by the 1st group. Their topic is about having a bf/gf during school age is better. (Sorry that’s not the original title, I’ve forgotten.. -_-;;) From that short lesson, I’ve found what I need & I’m searching for all these while. Something important that I’ve forgotten & I can’t move forward without it. "I’m still a kid…. not mature yet" So, that explain a lot, the reasons why I’m still here, staying for F6, going to govn. school again & taking those tests… it’s because I still can’t be independent. Yeah, I believe that I’m spoilt by my parents. I can say is, they are over-protective? I do agree with this in some aspects. Being the spoilt child & is staying as an ungrown-up child. How worst I am.. but I didn’t notice that, not until that day. So, that’s the something I’m searching for to help me to continue walking that road. So, what should I do to improve myself? I don’t know…. but I know I had many many things to learn, the ups and downs of life?
     Just yesterday, because of my "baka" personality, I’ve done something hurting friends, and even family members. It was just a misunderstanding, yet turn into a worst thing. Also bad lucks are visiting me again & I’ve lost myself because of it. That time, endless darkness is surrounding me…. how I wanted to unsheathe the katana & slit myself. But of course, I don’t have that courage to do it. Is life meaningful? What are we living for? Those questions seem have broken the seal & appear again after 3 years. That time, thanks to Ken-niisan saving me yet this time I’ll be on my own, but with my prince(s) support. I’ll overcome it this time again! In order to keep my promise with them… "Yakusoku dayo~!"
     Let’s get back to the main topic then - about "the day". Starting from where I’ve stopped watching Tenipuri for a long time, the battle of Ryoma vs Kelvin beings (Finally!! I’ve got to see this match~~ the one I’ve been waiting so long! >_< Go Go Ryoma!!) **Some warning before you continue reading - it may contain spoilers, so stop reading if you don’t want.** Hehee, well the battle is kinda "over-reacting" but still great! Ryoma is so cool~ especially the scene where he shows "Thumbs down" at Kelvin. Kyaaa~~…. kakkoi!! The match between the US Team & Jr. Tennis (Japan) ended beautifully & heart-touching. It’s really a great match but I prefer the match between Ryoma vs Sanada then Kelvin’s one more. ^^v After the match with US team, the story continues with some short stories of our heroes usual routine, Sumire-sensei’s returning back from hospital and the best is… buchou’s return!! Tezuka is fully-recover & back. ;_: "Okaerinasai, Tezuka-buchou~" All Seigaku members are finally gather and ready to prepare for the National Levels. The storyline is still aiming at the National Levels, but sadly… it turns 180 degrees later in the story~ (I’ve read some spoilers on the net. Yeah, I was so angry at those people spoiling my story! They should at least warn us that it contain spoilers. Nya-ro!) It’s really sad to know that kind of ending, and probably there won’t be any Season 2 of Tenipuri. >_< Yada~yo! Oujisama….
     Also, 2 short chibi episodes are aired - about Tenipuri Family. ^-^ Yeeah~ I really laugh so much watching. As usual, ne? So guess what’s next? Heehe~ the long waiting to see the final OP - Dream Believer! This is the best OP clip that I like within all Tenipuri’s OP. The song is of course, amazing! Luv it soooo much~ also it gives me some energy to by listening to it. It’s mainly focusing on Ryoma-kun. (This reminds me and the ending again… *sniff* as Ryoma is.. he is…~ >_<) Kyaa… Ryoma-kun is really so cool in that OP clip. Especially before the clips end, Ryoma is sitting beside the beach, watching the sunset(?) and enjoying Ponta! He’s looking so grown-up and kakkoi in that scene. I’ll snap a pic of it later and put it here. ^^ More ever I’ve seen something, some hint at that clip. ~> *Spoilers* It’s a match between Ryoma-kun & Tezuka-buchou. Yeah, I know a part of it is from where they 1st have a match (before vs Hyotei if I’m not mistaken) but I believe that one particular scene - Sakuno, Horio & their friends watching a match so seriously, and also Tezuka, who’s going to serve. (He’s looking more kakkoi too, ne?) That scene~ it’s one of the final match in Tenipuri. That’s what I believe but I can only confirm this after watching till the end. ^-^ After watching the clip, I really wanted to write down those feelings at that time. So, here what it is now… even though I can’t express well yet. -_-;; Mada mada dane? Heehe~
     Tomorrow, there will be a Japan Educational Fair in KL’s Mid Valley. Unfortunately I can’t go. Reasons? Transportation, on the next day, Sun. I had an important lesson to attend & I’ll need to rush back to Ipoh if I go there. Also the last will be - I don’t think I’m ready for it too. Well, its okay I still can search for another way without going to that Edu Fair. The Japanese Speech Contest is on tomorrow night too, and probably can’t go either because my mom is mumbling again, saying that going alone there is dangerous. -_-;; No comments… But anyway, I’m glad yesterday’s bad luck is gone & I’m back to my normal self. Maybe it’s because I get to see my prince(s) again? ^^ Sou desuka…
     Hai, I’ll end here now. Time is 3.59am. Very tired, but I’ll stay up for the whole night I think. Today, maybe tomorrow too. This holiday isn’t really a holiday for me, so terrible. F6 life is killing~ u_u *sigh*
     **Today’s post title is kinda special - "No Title". I’ve chosen that as there’s too much title suit to put in. So that’s the best choice. ^^ Till then~ Jya!

      It had been soooooo long since I blogged again~ Well, it was my monthly exam a few days back & my net’s connection is having some errors, so I haven’t been able to online & blog! ;_; Sooo many things happen within these few days & I wanted to write it down, remembering these important ones. Who knows, maybe one day my memories may wash away~? But of course, that’ll be the worst thing ever that I wouldn’t hope to happen. Yeah, one of my most precious things are my memories…. & amnesia is also one of the illness that I’m most afraid of. Why? It’ll take away everything dear to me…  If I’m having some incurable sickness, I still can take my memories with me, but amnesia can’t. I may even ask "Who am I?"

     So, let’s go back to few days back. 8th & 9th are my exam days, it’s really ‘dying-days’. I think I’ve failed all subjects… well, the results will be out next week~ Wish me luck then. -_-;; On 10th(Wed), I just know that the Tennis Club will be having a practice. I though the practices will start during September? But lucky~~~ I’m so excited! >_< I’m really looking forward to it so much… even getting so excited while I’m having my duty at the Computer Lab. After the duty ends, I quickly rush home, getting all changed up & ready to go! Nya~ it’s the my first time ever playing tennis! Finally, my dreams comes true~ So glad that I got a friend accompany me too, MJ.(as only 4 members include the captain/president were present on that day. Of course, our teacher adviser/coach was present too) Well, MJ & I have the same reason why we like Tennis. ^-^ Heehee~ oujisama, ne?

     It had been a really great & fun time during that short 2-hour practice. Eventhough it’s tough for us both beginners, (our 1st time playing tennis), and really really tired, but I’m sure we enjoyed our time. And b’cos I seldom exercise & didn’t warm up my muscle too, I’m having some muscle pain in right arm & both legs, especially right one. >_< Fortunately, those pains have already gone right now I’m typing (before - this morning at school, it’s acking!). However, I felt a bit depressed & embarrassed too, as I still can’t correct my mistake yet. Therefore, can’t even hit the ball over the net. =X Yeah..I’m the kind - slow learner people. *sniff* I think I’ll take some time learning the basics, yup need lots of lots of practices. But definitely, I’m not gonna quit or give up! Hai, zettai akiramenai! Gambarimasu, Kio-chan! Oujisama will be my energy~ my pillar of support. *^^*   

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…..:~Donna mirai e demo, Tsuyoku nareru youni~:….

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     That’s actually a part of lyrics taken from the song, Sincerely~ever dream~ from the anime Hikaru no Go, sung by Dream. Some anime have really great & meaningful lyrics, that’s one of the reason I like them so much. Another example? Gravitation - the lyrics are totally amazing & beautiful, of course the song is really sugoi too! ^^v

     Another great news that I got so excited is~ I finally get to see Iceman! Their performance of Shining Collection. Woaah~ I had been searching for so long online yet I only found places where I need to pay to watch. Thanks to a Aarinfantasy forum, I got to download it! "Kyaaaa~~~~ Iceman wa kakkoi!!!" >_< *drools* I was going so crazy watching their performance. However, the file isn’t that good quality and small, it’s hard to see to vocal’s face, Michihiro Kuroda. Awww~ but he’s really cool! Hehee, but I’ll search for their pictures on net! Maybe I can get some closer look on them! Well, Gravitation or NG fans can check this site — Nittle Grasper  It has some info about Iceman~ I luv this site much, but sadly.. the site havn’t been update for sometime. I’ve adopted kyute little ones from that site too, visit here - Door 04, to see them. Kawaii desune? ^^ Hehee~ also this yaoi fangirl had been into downloading many BL anime~ *grins* Those yaoi-virus seems to spread so fast! OMG~~~! XD Also finally, ‘the time will be coming soon’ (Read more at my below post - Happyx2 Day!! to know more about it). Till then~~…. *vanish with the wind*

     "Keep On Dreaming" — sung by Caps to Bin. From the single album : Ometto Samba // Tenipuri.