Garden of Memories

     Today sure is a very tiring day…. I haven’t tried to stay awake the whole night for so long already, since when it is the last time I stayed up? Hehee, I can’t remember either. I was online last night (28^th, Mon – which is Kikumaru Eiji’s birthday! “Nya~ tanjoubi omedetou, neko Eiji-kun”) until around midnight     I’ve finally borrowed that series from Yuri-chan. It had been long times I’ve yearn to watch it, since I felt in love with it when I first see it & also the poster of it is still hanging up in my room. *^^* All the times, I’m always wandering why most fans loves Dark more than Niwa Daisuke, but I like Daisuke more. That’s my thoughts before I’ve watch the series. I think it’s because of the poster, Daisuke looks more kakkoi >///< & kawaii than Dark. Hehee, but I was wrong. After watching the series for only a few episodes, Dark has already captured my heart. Waah~~~ Dark wa kakkoi yo! XD More ever, his voice was so cool too! (That’s of course as Dark’s seiyuu is Okiayu Ryotarou-san, one of the sexy talented voice actors! >_< Tezuka-buchou~~~!) I really didn’t recognize his voice in DNAngel. Well, actually mostly all characters voice I can’t recognize, -_-;; even Ishida Akira-san’s voice! How baka I am~~~ I thought I can recognize his voice in every kind of character but I guess I’m wrong. Okiayu-san’s voice is gentler & kinda lively(?) in Dark, comparing with Tezuka’s. (Probably that’s the reason I didn’t recognize, XD as I’m more familiar with Tezuka-buchou’s voice~)

. Well, I’m just too busy doing my own stuff & also for the cosplay as later today I’m going to find the tailor. Well finally around midnight, I’ve finished most of the things and getting ready to continue watching D.N.Angel. I’ll finish the whole series tonight (about 4-5 more discs to go ^^;; quite a lot)

     Overall of the story? Love it very, very much! ^^v It hurts so much to see Dark’s bid farewell to Daisuke~ T_T My vision was blurred with tears….  Yeah, it’s because of the word ‘love’, that’s why. Dark is cool, sexy, and sometimes cold, flirts with the girls… and I like his way of speaking~ polite I can say? A girl’s dream idol~ (there’s so many Dark’s fangirls, including me! *^^*) Also, can’t forget Wits, the kawaii rabbit!! Aww… he’s really soo kyutee!! I really wanted to huggles him~ >_< *hearts* Of course, Daisuke-kun is also so kyute~ …….. (Too cute for words to continue) ……..

     At about 6.30am, I’ve finished the whole series. Well, the discs that Yuri-chan bought had been shortened – OP & ED + preview are all cut off. I really hate that but what can I do?? But never mind I’ll download fansubs HQ version & go for a re-watch definitely. ^^ Great series doesn’t only watch once right? Yup, for some sequence~ Later, I went to get some rest around 7.15am as I’m too tired, need lots of energy later the day. However, I had to get up at 9am, (it’s already very late) as I’ll need to collect my passport & Yuri-chan is coming to my house today. Together, we’re going to find the tailor. *sigh* But its bad luck for me….. I’ve forgotten to bring the address but still remember some. We went to the shopping complex for sigh-seeing & to search for that shop, even went to many tailors or clothing shops to ask but it seems no good. All response I got was negative. I ask if they did any clothing for cosplay or costume play but I think all of them gave me a weird looking/response. Yeah, I guess almost they didn’t even understand the word “cosplay”. -_-;;; I’ve got so discourage…. I wanted so badly to cos as a Shinigami (Bleach) this year, with so many fans together. Time is getting less and less. However, I won’t give up that easily! Even until the last moment, zettai akiramenai yo! I’m sure I can find a way if I tried my best. Just need to pass over those obstacles & I can find success. “Gambatte yo, Kio-chan!”  (^^v)

   After giving up searching for that shop, we left the shopping complex and went to those animanga shops. Kyaa…. I think I’ve got Loveless virus~~ I love it soooo much, really wanted to buy the whole manga series home. >////< It’s just too beautiful, the artwork. It’s really a great masterpiece to collect & keep. Therefore I’ll be buying it later, as there are a few different publishers; I’ll go for the ones which is most similar to the original ones (made in Japan).

     Some last words to end today’s post…. Too tired, too lazy, too sad, missing my prince(s) so much…. T-T just ‘too’ much in everything. Well, good night then~ it’s already 2am. =.=;;; (Next year, I’m bet I’m going be a panda.)

     "Walk On" - 2nd Ending Theme by Masataka Fujishige of the Op/Ed Single // Tenipuri.

     Nyaa…. It had been sooo long since I’ve last posted here. Yeah yeah, finally da lazy kitty woke up from its sleep & started to work. Gomenasai, minna~~ I should be punish na? Ano presents mo…. Haven’t finished done. Ack! >_< Let’s see… how many more?? *Hmmm…* Atobe-san, Shinji-kun, Taka-san, Kisarazu Twins, Junko-san *OMG!!!* , Lucky Sengoku-kun. Then coming will be Eiji & also Kaida Yuki-san!!! Waaah~~~ I wonder if I can finish all those or not?? More and more are coming up too~ T-T Jikan mo arimasen yo! Or rather, I’m worst in time arranging?? Yup yup yup, it’s all MY fault, I’m really really sorry! I’ll try my best to get all those work done, asap. “Gambattene, Kio-chan!”

     In this post, I’ll be writing 3 in 1, which is 3 days in 1 post – November 22, 25&26. Let’s start from 22th. ^-^ That sure is a very special day you know, because it’s my top favorite J-pop & seiyuu’s birthday!!! Minagawa Junko-san~~~ *Claps & Cheers* “Tanjoubi omedetou, Junko-san” Thank you very much; you’ll always be my seiyuu idol. *^^* So, to celebrate this special & important day, I wanted to make some memories, therefore had plan to watch Tenipuri’s movie – Futari no Samurai The First Game & Atobe kara no Okurimono. At last, it’ll be the day I’ll be watching it~ how long have I been waited to see this?? Since its making was announced &; will be released on the 29^th of January 2005. Sure it a long time ago…. ne Ryoma-kun?? ^-^ Heehee, well it’s okay, as long as I did watch it, that’s what counts.

     It’s really an interesting and wonderful movie IMHO, but I think not all fans do agree with me. Yeah, I finally understand the reason why Tenipuri fans said about the movie. Well, I agree to~ in some scenes it’s kind of over-reacting, but I still love it! ^^ Throughout the whole movie, I was sitting on the bed in front of the pc screen, hugging my new-bought-kawaii Ryoma in-bear-costume plushie, smiling & laughing happily while watching it. I didn’t really notice this, not until it was airing some part of the movie. At that moment I finally understand, that I’ve really fell really, very, very deep into the sea of Tenipuri. That’s why I was smiling so happily for the whole time. Deep down, my heart is smiling too~ “Arigato, Ryoma-kun, minna~~ hontou ni arigato gozaimasu!! *bows* Ikitte, yokatta yo~ minna o aimashita, watashi~ totemo ureshi desu…. >_<” I’ll be looking forward towards next year’s OVA – to the National Tournament! Well, and also the Live Action, it’ll be one interesting show…. Show us your powers, the cast of Live Action, and especially Echizen Ryoma’s cast. ^-^ Gambatteyo! Watashi, zutto~ minna ni ouensuruyo!

     25^th – Finally I’ve the free time to watch Loveless…. Another anime I’ve been waiting for so long!!! Many thanks to Rikiki-chan~ my kawaii imouto-chan. *winks* Also, thank you very much for the KKM, Satose-san’s sugoi artworks & the present. I really like it very much! Thank you Lynn-san helps too, if not I doesn’t think I would be able to receive those. “Arigato gozaimasu…. Lynn-san, Rikiki-chan.“ Satose-san’s artworks are totally amazing; it attracted me by its 1^st look. Waaahh~~ kakkoi desu!! Totemo kirei desu~~… Yuri-chan & HYee-san also were amazed by the beautiful drawings! ^^ From all of the artworks, the one I like most is the girl in kimono (under a sakura tree?). Satose-san is really a talented one. Nyaa~ I envy her very much, I wish I had that talent to draw too. >///< Hehee~ anyway I hope I can get to see more wonderful artworks of hers in the future. Wish you all the best, Satose-san!

     Okay, back to the topic about Loveless. Comparing to those anime I’ve watched (which are full of kakkoi bishies) eg. Sukisyo, Tactics, Meine Liebe … Loveless is the one I’ll put in the place, 1^st. It really does mean it…. I never imagine such beautiful anime I’ve seen. The anime isn’t the only one which is beautifully drawn, but also the manga. I never ever imagine of failing for the 2^nd main character in Loveless, Soubi. Usually it’ll be the main protagonist, which is Ritsuka. But I think I luv Soubi more than Ritsuka. (Btw, Ritsuka does have some similarity with Ryoma-kun. ^^ Their seiyuu – Minagawa Junko-san; their name starts with ‘R’; & some characteristics.) In Loveless, Soubi was drawn so beautifully till I’ve fall for him. >/////< Kyaaa~~~ Soubi-kun wa totemo kakkoi!! Suki dayo~… Haruka (Tactics) didn’t attract me that much, compare to Soubi-kun. Hehee~ But of course, I luv them all! Kantarou-chan, Haruka, Ritsuka-kun, Soubi… Not only the characters, but the story, the background & music, all are really really beautiful. I really like the butterflies too, kirei~~ Kouga Yun-sensei is really sugoi!! Eventhough I’m got so confused while watching it, but I like the storyline very much. A sacrificer & fighter, which shared the same name (except for Ritsuka & Soubi); decided by destiny, bonded together by fate; everything are such mystical, magical~ with sweet kawaii romance & some comedy too. Also, I never imagine the anime title Loveless, was Ritsuka’s real name. To me, it’s really a beautiful name, even though the meaning for it is ‘less love one’, but I really like it. Loveless had captured my heart very much! The opening theme, “Tsuki no Curse” is another excellent masterpiece done. It suits the anime, and the song is really wonderful~~ Well, but I don’t really like it’s ending, which is like Tactics’s endings too, something like half-way hanging… but well, what done is done, I have learned to adapt that kind of ending. Yeah, probably because some anime & especially Tenipuri’s ending gave me a huge impact. I’ll be reading the manga next, I’m sure I’ll understand more the story and so by reading it…. “Making memories… taking photos~~ Ritsuka-kun, thank you very much!”

    Lastly, tonight – 26^th. Another special day to remember. Well, I force myself to watch Tenimyu. I have been delaying it for so long, just like Tenipuri’s movie, because of the fear – graduation & farewell. I didn’t want to face that fear like I did with Anipuri. It’s really sad & hurts, but I know this can’t be forever; someday~ I’ll need to face it. At first, I didn’t have much special feeling for Tenimyu, not until the last part – when Kimeru sang “You Got Game”. That moment I felt that I’m back to the time when I’ve started to watch Anipuri. That song was the 1^st ending theme of Anipuri. Those feelings were there~ so true, so nostalgic… little droplets started to gather in my eyes, I missed those days very much. It’s really wonderful & I didn’t regret watching Tenimyu at all (that’s of course right?). And Yanagi-kun is soooo kakkoi~~~ his act was totally sugoi!! Nya, next will be Tenimyu II – Remarkable First Match ~Fudoumine~ be looking forward to watch it!

     Some last words, I’m still a rookie learning Japanese, any errors above please don’t mind me, onegai ne? ^^;; Comic Fiesta will be arriving in about 3 more weeks, I had to rush more to get ready for it. My cosplay plans for this year are – 1^st Day : Ise Nanao [Bleach]; 2^nd Day : Echizen Ryoma [Tenipuri]. Well those are plans only okay?? I won’t be really cosplaying as Ryoma because of 2 reasons, but I’ll be wearing his Seigaku’s Tennis Club costume. For Nanao-chan’s or shinigami costume, I havn’t even made one… T_T wooooo… time is running out and I still havn’t done anything yet. However, I’m getting the photos/pictures ready to ask the tailor, just too much things need to be done by this week; I don’t have much time left too. I just hope the tailor would accept & the costume can be done in time. *Pray hard for it~~* Next Monday, be going to renew my passport, I’ll be going to Singapore in Christmas time.(I’ll write more about it later ^^) Then next Friday & Saturday, be going to Cameron Highlands, our class trip for plants collecting & also for fun! XD But actually I did regret a bit going there, right now my emotion is… I didn’t really wanna go. I would rather go to KL to prepare for CF. *sigh* That’s impossible, I’ve already paid up for the trip… -_-;; Also, gonna changed my specs to~ this year, I won’t be able to wear contact lens but at least, please let me changed to a frameless specs. =.=||| That’s for the plans I need to complete before 17^th of December. Hai hai, it’s very late already (2:20am), need to have some nice sleep~ Well then, oyasuminasai, minna-san~! *^^*

    “Days of Moments” from the Solo Album “Eyes” of Fuji Syuusuke // Tenipuri.

     After a few months of busyness, I’ve finally got some free time back as holiday is around the corner. Finals had been over about a week & 6^th Form Graduation Night is over. Even though my results aren’t good, but it seems to have a bit improvements compare to the previous one. I’m not sure how I can survive next year, also afraid to imagine how it’ll be either, as what I can see is - it’ll be another ‘dead’ year.

     I’ve been studying in F6 for about half a year already, yet that heart which once wanted to study is still missing, probably is gone forever. I can’t even remember when I’ve lost it, where, why or how. The only pillar which I’m clingin’ onto right now is only them. That’s the only hope for me but the power is so weak & unstable, it may fall apart anytime. Yeah, I remember some net friends did give advices, “Clinging onto it is really dangerous, and it’s a risk” But that’s the only choice I have…. Or rather that’s the only road I can take. All other paths already had been destroyed by my own hands. Never mind, I’ll be fine…. I hope…

     Today it should be a happy & important day; it is my beloved shinigami’s birthday, Hisoka-kun. It’s his 25 years old b’day but he’ll always stay as a 16 year old kakkoi teenager~ ^^ A cool & cold attitude, a bit arrogant yet very cute ‘kid’ (as others called him) but deep in his heart, he does caring for others, protecting the one he loves with all his strength. Even though that cold attitude shielding his inner self but he’s still a boy who needs others love & care too…. ‘Soka-chan, eien ni kimi o mamoru… [+]

     We (L6B4) got more feedbacks of our performance & our director gave a touchy speech too~ XD In my honest opinion, I really don’t agree much about the judges decisions, especially the Best Costume award. It’s really unfair & probably because the rule didn’t mention well too. Our hard works, sweat & tears in making the clothes & accessories for the actors/actresses – pirates, customers, waitress & cashier should be at least are appreciated. It’s our own original design & handmade. However, the judges’ choice was on the most expensive costumes. Anyway, we can’t blame much as the rules didn’t state well in the first place. However, if CF’s judging is similar as F6 night, I rather not watch. Awarding to those who pay the most than those who work the most, how illogic, unfair… well in this world, things are unfair. You had to bear with it and live on. “The strong will survive, the weak will perish,” what’s your opinion? I didn’t want to agree but that’s life, that’s the truth.

     More ever, we got to see some photos of F6 Dinner Night today. From those pictures, I just knew that I’ve made more mistakes - too much of make-up! >_< I really hate that picture of me, looking worst that a doll or ghost. I really regret of putting up make-ups. Well, this definitely will be the final time; I’ll put on a very light make-up in the future only when it’s necessary. However by this, I can use it as a comfort to myself for missing our ‘family’ picture because I’ll spoil that picture with that terrible look. I was really angry, regret & greatly depressed because of that single photo on that night. But I can only blame myself; just take this as a lesson. Some photos are really nicely taken, examples photos with the kawaii chicken/duck of our class teacher’s daughter. I’ve order some photos as a remembrance even I’m not in it but because of that soooo cute plushie! Aww.. I believe many of us will miss it. We’re really grateful for the kind little girl who lends her plushie to us. We had a great & wonderful time being with it. Yeah, maybe I’ll make a small dedication for it… ^^v Lastly, even though we didn’t win anything during that dinner night, but I really had a great time with everyone (classmate). The process of preparing for the show, the time we shared together, that the most important thing & the most priceless gift we had gained. Anyway, I’ll do some more lil-presents using those photos, nothing much special but I just had that kind of feeling I wanted to do something for our class. Phew, many works need to be done~ but first it will be for my lovely bishounen. Very sorry for the delayed presents…. x_x I’ll get the work done asap!

     “The Ache of My Heart” from the Solo Album “Eyes” of Fuji Syuusuke // Tenipuri.

“Black Rain” from the Solo Album of Fuji Syuusuke @ Kaidah Yuki-san, <Eyes> // Tenipuri. “Kuroi Ame (The black rain), you’d really made it…”

     SIN…. I finally understand the meaning of it. It was my entire fault; I don’t have to blame anyone. The sin I created has really paid off. I’m really, really sorry but it’s no use, it had happens & that’s the truth. For that sin, a priceless sacrifice is paid. I can’t or I shouldn’t blame anyone… it was all because of me. That feeling of being hurt, left out, betrayed…. I understand how much it kills the heart & yet I’ve done that. Blame for my carelessness, arrogant ness, bakaness.. I have nothing much to defend, but to regret for what I’ve done.

     6^th From Dinner Night ended today. I was quite satisfied with my dressing, even though I wasn’t wearing a skirt. Maybe others may judge my appearance of that night, but they won’t understand the reasons behind & I don’t need to explain either. “It’s okay, it’ll be fine…”

     Feedback of our performance, from what I can see, overall this is the best comparing to the previous practices or rehearsals. I believe we had past the time limit (8 minutes) as some time was lost during the scene changing. However, one thing is for sure is… I’ve fail my own test. In my heart, I know I didn’t give my best shot. Those feelings~ anxious, excited, nervous, scared, pressured…… they had flooded my mind, blinding my consciousness. In the previous rehearsal, I did much better than this time, I’m really sorry… to my classmates. I won’t hope for forgiveness neither as I don’t deserve it. What past is past, no mater what it can never be changed. I just have to go on with it, forever crafted in my mind.

A wound made by someone with strong hatred, that wound will not heal, until revenge has been exacted. It may never go away…

     Whoa, it had been such a long time since I’ve posted. Anyway, today is one of the prince birthday~ Oshitari Yushi // Hyotei Gakuen. October sure has many prince(s) birthday!! Also it’s both Buchou’s birthday - Atobe Keigo (4th) & Tezuka Kunimitsu (7th). Kyaaa…. >_< I never knew their birthday are on the same month! Well, I’ve made a lil-gift for Tezuka-buchou’s as a present ~[+]~. As for Atobe-sama’s & Yushi-kun’s, I’ll do it later. Also, my beloved Hisoka-kun’s birthday is coming too!! ^^v ‘Soka-chan~~~ more presents to make…. (So busy -_-;;)

     My finals had finally ended, yet our class are busy preparing for the F6 Dinner Night’s Talent Show Competition, which is a competition between Lower Sixes. Many things went wrong during the rehearsals, mostly due to the PA system. On the first day of rehearsal at the restaurant (13th), we went there with full of confidence & very excited. However we came back with such terrible sad mood totally disappointed. Yet we didn’t give up, we tried our very best again for the next rehearsal (14th), however the same problems occurred again. This time we request for another round of rehearsal & it’s much better.

     Finally, tomorrow will be the day~ after all the hard works, sacrifices… it’ll be the time to show our results. I really enjoy myself with everyone(L6B4) during the preparations for the show. There were sweet & bitter moments, conflicts & arguments but something important is… we all have the same aim - to do our best for that night. As for me, I’ll try my very best & also pray hard for everything will go smoothly. Actually, I’m really glad that I can be one of the part in the show. Tomorrow isn’t only for our class, the competition, but also for my own self. It’ll be the first test, in order to test my talent as to be a seiyuu. Since I’ve met them(oujisama), I’m really interested in being a seiyuu. My top favourite seiyuu is Minagawa Junko-san~~ ^O^ I really admired her talent & voice, also she’s beautiful~ XD “Kio-chan, gambarimasu~!”

     My dress for tomorrow’s night… actually my aim was to dress up like Sakuma Ryuichi. Unfortunately, that idea can’t work as I wasn’t able to find a similar costume at here. So, I’ve bought another dress with some similarity with that costume. As for accessories, I haven’t found any suitable neither but thanks to Yuri-chan, she’ll help me out. Hehee, maybe I’ll think of posting some pictures during that dinner.

     Last night, I finally got some time to watch Final Fantasy VII Advent Children(movie) & Last Order(ova). AC is really cool & amazing~ especially during the battles. Tifa is so beautifully drawn~ ^^ Even though during some scenes, the characters may look a bit fake but overall I like it very much. My feedbacks…. there were many scenes which I’m really blur & people like me whose understanding level is really low, I think I should play the game to understand more about the movie. The best is someone could explain to me XP. Take FFVIII for example, I’ve played several times & even seen my cousins played, yet there’s still some part in the story which I just couldn’t understand. Maybe it’s really that my understanding is that “good”! Anyway, that’s for today… I’ll need to prepare myself for tomorrow’s big day. Maybe watching some anime could calm my emotions down~ ^-^ Some last words… “Dear classmates, have a good rest tonight. All the Best & Good Luck! Tomorrow, together let’s show everyone the power of Pirates of L6B4~ Gambattene! ^^v”

     “Go to the Top!” from the Solo Album “Hametsu no Rondo” of Atobe Keigo // Tenipuri.

     After having a delicious homemade Western dinner, I was so bored, nothing much to do but letting the time fly by. However, something interesting caught my eyes. That is the new movie of Lindsay Lohan – Herbie : Fully Loaded. Sometime before, I’ve heard & read the newspaper about it & really got interested in it. (Yeah, I like to watch Lindsay’s show too. ^^v) So, how about let’s watch it tonight? Of course, watching it together with my family members in the hall room.

     It’s really a great comedy & racing show. (P/s: Does Kelvin look alike like someone?? Lol, Suwabe Junichi-san’s image keep on appearing in my mind XD) So, what’s the important thing that made me wanted to keep some memories down here? Well, as I’m watching the movie especially those scenes where they are preparing for a race till the race starts, I felt so nostalgic~ some vivid memories of the past appeared. Yes, it was them - Hayato-kun, Asuka-san, Miki-san… those childhood friends.

     Future Grand Prix Cyber Formula, which is the 1^st ever anime I remember watching when I was a kid. It also had some special memories behind it. The anime which I grew up with, I as am Elementary School students till now; Kazami-san who continue his dad’s dream to ride, became he youngest champion at age 15 and till he’s 21 years. Those childhood days with them are really fun & precious. That’s where everything starts… my life into that world. I still remember vividly at that particular time, I was sitting at the hall room, watching CF GPX together with my cousins, it was that moment that made me wanted to learn Japanese. I still remember those words I said to myself, “When there’s a chance in the future, I wanted to learn up Japanese… so I won’t need any subtitles help.” Hehee~ that’s what the elementary student thoughts, ne?

     Even though it had been so many years we had been together, (so sorry that I don’t remember since when I met them, I was too young that time) but those past, memories of yours, always I’ll craft it in my heart forever~…especially those moments on the track. “Hayato-kun, Asuka-san, soshite minna-san, arigato gozaimashita…” Thank you so much for everything, those days were truly wonderful. Lastly, I’ll be looking forward towards the future, the year around 2022, the time where your story begins to shine…

     “Mirai no Kioku” ~ Memories of the Future ~ sung by CaYOCO, from the album CF Saga – OST Vol.1 // Future CF GPX.

     I didn’t know your influence is so great to me. Since the day you left, I’m always in the blue. I felt like something is missing in my heart, those unusual & uncomfortable feeling keep on haunting me. However, that had proved something. I’m really misses you all so much…always.

     It was last December. The month of snow, it’s that season that I’ve met you. Just within a short period of time, I’ve fallen so deep for you. Encouraging me, supporting me… even changing my life. I’ve went to find a part-time job during my holidays, because I wanted to buy that Regular Jersey so much; My cat-lover feelings had grown more & I adopted a kitten, named Yuki (after Gravitation’s Shuichi’s lover, Eiri Yuki-san); Started to like tennis, wanted to learn it. Not only that, tennis had been already in my list. It’s the 3^rd sport that I’ll really take it seriously & of course, love it very much too. (That’s the reason why I continue to F6, I wanted to learn tennis at school. Even though it wouldn’t be the same as our school system here is very different from where you are. I really like studying Elementary School, then to Junior High School, graduate & onto Senior High School. The life there is really my dreams but I understand that it’ll   never come true, forever being my dream, as time will not turn back.) My passion for tennis, I’ll remember this feeling as long as I can. It’s the only power left to support me after you are gone. Your influence had changed me & my life so much.

     On that day, I told myself that I’ll be fine, “It’ll be ok…” but actually, that’s a lie. I didn’t want to let you see that sad, worried me before you depart. That’s why those words…. I’m sorry. I weren’t able to keep that promised. I’m so lost, like a kitten being dumped away to the street. I didn’t know what I should do, nor have the courage to walk the first step. Just letting that loneliness, sadness swallowed me. Gomenasai… I wasn’t being my own self. I didn’t know your departures had such great impact on me.

     After Tenipuri series had finally ended, I watched the 2 ‘special’ episodes subbed by Dattebayo & Shinsen-Subs. Both two were actually April Fool’s Joke. [**Warning! Spoilers**] Dattebayo subbed the final episode. It’s a joke about Ryoma-kun commit suicide in the end. I didn’t know at first, I though it was a normal fansub episode. But then as I watched the till opening song, it’s kinda scary~ they change the song. I know something is different with this episode. Therefore I watched till the end. (Sometime before, I read a post/spoilers asking that why Ryoma-kun died in the end & I understand now) As for Shinsen-Subs ones – The Truth Behind The Genius, that’s really a don’t-know-how-to-describe feeling. I really laugh so much, even choking while drinking. It’s a TezuFuji episode. Lol, BLness~ and I felt so guilty while borrowing that episode to my Friend (I believe she is naive to BL) >_< Haha, Shinsen-Subs really did it! It’s really a great joke to those who don’t really understand Japanese as the subtitles there were changed, fake ones. As for me, I’m still learning Japanese(still a rookie but can understand simple & short ones) & also had finished watching the series, those jokes doesn’t really put any much effect on me. Anyway, cheers to both fansub group! ^^v (I’m sure their trick/joke did work.)

     Writing my feelings down really helped me much, I’m feeling much better. I’ll watch Tenipuri’s movie & Tenimyu someday later, with a good happy mood of course. Meanwhile, I’ve heard from a Chinese Forum, Greenland(China) & Youthful Days that there will be a Tenipuri 2^nd Season (in OVA form) about the National Tournament & the most shocking one is Tenipuri Live Action! O_o OMG! I can’t really believe that…. I’m really looking forward toward the OVA (even though I can guess how the story would be, and my beloved Ryoma-kun won’t be there either, he’s in America. I’ll still cheer for Seigaku!) As for the Live Action, I just hope it won’t be what I’ve imagine. -_-;;; if not I may not even watch it. Well, it’s nite time~ 1.30am already) Oyasuminasai, minna-san~ oujisama…. ♥

     “Since Last Goodbye” ~ Tezuka Kunimitsu’s single album // Tenipuri.

     “Sayonara” - (Single) Rajipuri Theme Song [Momoshiro Takeshi] // Tenipuri.

     Tonight is finally the final day. “That time~ this is the last…” Before I continue to watch, I was listening to all Tenipuri’s OP & ED theme in order, starting from the 1st OP – Future to 1st Ending - You Got Game & till the last OP - Dream Believer also the last ED - Little Sky.

     As the melody flows~ memories of the past slowly begins to gather in one piece. It’s really nostalgic. Starting from Future, that’s where the first time I met Ryoma-kun. That OP Clip is mainly focusing on him (that’s of course, PoT is mainly focusing on him ne?) Probably that’s where I got so obsessed with him & love him so much. >////< Kyaaa~~… Ryoma-kun suteki! And till Dream Believer, the clip again is focusing on him. This is the final time right? There probably won’t be any chances again. Ryoma-kun had grown up so much, of course others did too and Momo-sempai’s image appeared in my mind. Why? Well, he’s indeed the closers one to Ryoma-kun. They are always together, training tennis, playing doubles, eating hamburgers… (You’ll get to see this scene at the last few episodes. It’s so sad… *sniff*) their friendship is really heart-touching. (In the previous post, I did mention about the hints that I saw in the clip Dream Believer. You can view the pictures below, that’s the scene I’m reffering to. Pinpon! Yeah, my guess really hits the target. That’s the final…. ;_; )

     Here’s some images that I’ve promised to post it up. From the last Ending Theme of Prince of Tennis - Dream Believer.

• Ichinensei (All looking so serious…)
• Tezuka-buchou (Kakkoi,ne?)
• Ryoma : (i) Enjoying the sunset ; (ii)Drinking his fav Ponta (One of the best Ryoma’s pic. Looking so mature~…)

     The time has finally come~ … I won’t be writing like the 2 previous posts, I’ll keep these feelings deep in the heart. That’s the best. It had been about eight months since that day. Time passes so fast… I still remember the vivid memories that my cousin sis told me about them for the 1^st time. It’s the month of snows. That’s the first time I met my prince(s). Together with their company, I’m really glad that I’ve met them. They had taught me lots of lots of things, till I can finally stand up again by myself and walk the path I wanted. Always being such a great friend, giving me the courage, the support… Yes, they are my pillar of support. Someone so precious, dear to me that I didn’t want to let go off…

     As for today, it’s finally the day of your departure. There’s nothing that I can do to stop this, it’s a fact, a reality I had to accept. But the most important is still the days we share together. The laughter & the tears; sweet & bitterness, those wonderful days we had spent together~ that’s the best part of it. I will never forget the things that you had taught me. Yeah, I’ll be fine by my own. Daijoubu dayo! It’s gonna be OK. I will keep my style & walk on the road we had been walking together before, eventhough I’m alone now. It’s a long wayI know but with your stars shining brightly in my little sky, I believe I would able to go the place where I wanted. Spread the wings, fly high to the future. I’ll believe in my dream, someday I can reach there. I believe I’m able to meet you again, no matter where you are, I’ll search for you. That’s my promise for you. Thank you so much for everything…

…~Oujisama, ima made arigato gozaimashita!~…

[*Post the image later...*]

     Staying up late again, (around 3am now) continue on with Tennis no Oujisama. There are too much things I wanted to say, till I don’t know where I should start. I’ll just go on with my feelings from the episode I’ve watched, which are 166 till 174. Actually I wanted to finish it but I’m too tired for it. I’ll keep the 4 more last one for tomorrow’s night. “It’ll be the last….”

     ** Warning: Once more, this post DOES contain spoilers. I’ll be writing my feelings of that time watching. So I’ve warn you, stop reading this post if you don’t want your story being spoil. Thank you~ **

     Episode 166 – “Seigaku’s Speciality, Once Again” It’s time for Seigaku members to get ready for the National Tournament. A Ranking Tournament / Intra-school Tournament are going to be held, that’ll decide the National Tournament’s Regulars. Well in this few episodes, if you notice, you see that it has shown many hints for Tenipuri fans. That is – Tenipuri is going to end. Therefore, they are showing more scenes that fans would really like to see, eg. we can finally see Inui’s eyes, which is behind the glasses all these times. How the Golden Pair was form and matches between members that never been showed – eg. Fuji vs Tezuka. Yeah, it’s truly sad. When I’m watching, especially the scene where Ryoma’s dad, Nanjiroh received the letter from US. (I already knew some of the details because of the spoilers.) Just as Nanjiroh is reading about the letter, saying the words “US Open”, tears suddenly gathered around in my eyes… Ryoma’s going to America, ne? I got a bit angry too as all it stated because of that single letter, if not Ryoma wouldn’t be going.

     The story keeps on continue to show those hints & that’s making me more sad. I’m scared to bid farewell to them. I’m afraid of continue watching Tenipuri. That’s not the frirst time I’m afraid continue watching an anime because it’s ending may not be what I hoped for, like Tactics - the last episode. The preview shows that Youko-chan & Rosary-chan hugging each other, crying sadly. Kantarou also said “Sayonara. Arigato”. I though it was about Haruka bidding farewell to Kan-chan, but the story wasn’t what I imagined. Something I really never expected, and it’s so sad to accept that fact, the ending. I won’t spoil more on Tactics. Go watch it if you want to know more. Back to Tenipuri, I was really afraid while watching it. More ever, my heart (kinda) shivering too. All because I’m scared to know about the how the story is going on, how the ending is going to be. However, in this world there’s no party that would be on forever right? (That’s a Chinese proverb, I just translate it in English totally) Tenipuri is the same. One day it will end…. I had to learn to accept that fact, the reality. In fantasy, it can be forever, eternity.

     Drops of little waters had been falling continuously. The ending theme - Little Sky, which has a bit of sad tone, making me more emotional(sadly). Those were my feelings while I’m watching at that part. But I don’t want this kind of feeling to continue on. Do I want to bring my tears till the end? Will that be any good? No, yet I’ll be regretting it later, as I didn’t enjoy the last time being with my prince(s). I try to hold back my tears, sang the song, White Line, which is being played in the background that time Ryoma finally goes to America. Like what Tomoko-chan said, I should keep on smiling, that’s the best farewell gift I can give to Ryoma-kun. ^-^ Before that, I really hoped Ryoma-kun to stay and enter National Tournament. But that was really wrong, it’s really selfish of me having that kind of though. Thanks to everyone, I’ve got to cross that thinking. Well, my feelings are just like how Sakuno-chan felt. Ryoma-kun stated that he declines the US Open but in his heart, actually he wanted to go, ne? Also, my thoughs about reading those spoilers before had changed. If I hadn’t read and know how the story might be, I would be really surprised, depressed and many more negative feelings would appear too, as what I expected, hope isn’t what I get. But the spoilers had helped me some, I can understand, accept this fact within a short time. As I’m that kind of people which is takes much time to suit into a new situation I’m in or I’m given. I might be angry over the ending of Tenipuri & the worst might be I didn’t enjoy myself. Knowing about some storyline of Tenipuri during episodes near the ending, I can say it’s quite a good thing. I should have look into the positive side earlier. Hehee~ it’s okay now. Tomorrow night, I’ll be watching the final match, Tezuka vs Fuji. It’ll be one of the best matches ever in Tenipuri series. ^^v Hai, I’ll enjoy till the last minute, last second~… (to be continued……) [4.15am now, so tired~ tomorrow’s gonna be a big day too]

     “Crying Sky” – SR Samurai Solo Album, sung by Echizen Ryoma (CV = Minagawa Junko), “Little Sky” - ED Theme of Tenipuri, sung by Kentaro Fukushi. Actually I decided to put the title Crying Sky as I’m really depressed with the storyline going on. However as the story goes further, my feelings about it had changed. Therefore the title has changed too. -> "Crying Sky Little Sky" (Above had explained about that). The title shows my feelings too.

     There are so many things in my mind that I wanted to write them down right now. (It’s almost 3am here) Yeah, today is the day~ "the time has come…" It’s a day to celebrate, I think I can say that. The day I’m finally gonna watch all Tenipuri episodes. There are still 20 more to go but of course, I won’t finish them up in just a single night. I’m gonna spilt it to 3 days or so, tonight (just now), tomorrow and Sunday’s night too. ^-^ At last, it’s the time to end it all~      
     However, I’ll write some events that happen a week or so before, since that day we had our first debate (MUET lesson) in class. I’ve found something important after the teacher discuss with us about that debate presented by the 1st group. Their topic is about having a bf/gf during school age is better. (Sorry that’s not the original title, I’ve forgotten.. -_-;;) From that short lesson, I’ve found what I need & I’m searching for all these while. Something important that I’ve forgotten & I can’t move forward without it. "I’m still a kid…. not mature yet" So, that explain a lot, the reasons why I’m still here, staying for F6, going to govn. school again & taking those tests… it’s because I still can’t be independent. Yeah, I believe that I’m spoilt by my parents. I can say is, they are over-protective? I do agree with this in some aspects. Being the spoilt child & is staying as an ungrown-up child. How worst I am.. but I didn’t notice that, not until that day. So, that’s the something I’m searching for to help me to continue walking that road. So, what should I do to improve myself? I don’t know…. but I know I had many many things to learn, the ups and downs of life?
     Just yesterday, because of my "baka" personality, I’ve done something hurting friends, and even family members. It was just a misunderstanding, yet turn into a worst thing. Also bad lucks are visiting me again & I’ve lost myself because of it. That time, endless darkness is surrounding me…. how I wanted to unsheathe the katana & slit myself. But of course, I don’t have that courage to do it. Is life meaningful? What are we living for? Those questions seem have broken the seal & appear again after 3 years. That time, thanks to Ken-niisan saving me yet this time I’ll be on my own, but with my prince(s) support. I’ll overcome it this time again! In order to keep my promise with them… "Yakusoku dayo~!"
     Let’s get back to the main topic then - about "the day". Starting from where I’ve stopped watching Tenipuri for a long time, the battle of Ryoma vs Kelvin beings (Finally!! I’ve got to see this match~~ the one I’ve been waiting so long! >_< Go Go Ryoma!!) **Some warning before you continue reading - it may contain spoilers, so stop reading if you don’t want.** Hehee, well the battle is kinda "over-reacting" but still great! Ryoma is so cool~ especially the scene where he shows "Thumbs down" at Kelvin. Kyaaa~~…. kakkoi!! The match between the US Team & Jr. Tennis (Japan) ended beautifully & heart-touching. It’s really a great match but I prefer the match between Ryoma vs Sanada then Kelvin’s one more. ^^v After the match with US team, the story continues with some short stories of our heroes usual routine, Sumire-sensei’s returning back from hospital and the best is… buchou’s return!! Tezuka is fully-recover & back. ;_: "Okaerinasai, Tezuka-buchou~" All Seigaku members are finally gather and ready to prepare for the National Levels. The storyline is still aiming at the National Levels, but sadly… it turns 180 degrees later in the story~ (I’ve read some spoilers on the net. Yeah, I was so angry at those people spoiling my story! They should at least warn us that it contain spoilers. Nya-ro!) It’s really sad to know that kind of ending, and probably there won’t be any Season 2 of Tenipuri. >_< Yada~yo! Oujisama….
     Also, 2 short chibi episodes are aired - about Tenipuri Family. ^-^ Yeeah~ I really laugh so much watching. As usual, ne? So guess what’s next? Heehe~ the long waiting to see the final OP - Dream Believer! This is the best OP clip that I like within all Tenipuri’s OP. The song is of course, amazing! Luv it soooo much~ also it gives me some energy to by listening to it. It’s mainly focusing on Ryoma-kun. (This reminds me and the ending again… *sniff* as Ryoma is.. he is…~ >_<) Kyaa… Ryoma-kun is really so cool in that OP clip. Especially before the clips end, Ryoma is sitting beside the beach, watching the sunset(?) and enjoying Ponta! He’s looking so grown-up and kakkoi in that scene. I’ll snap a pic of it later and put it here. ^^ More ever I’ve seen something, some hint at that clip. ~> *Spoilers* It’s a match between Ryoma-kun & Tezuka-buchou. Yeah, I know a part of it is from where they 1st have a match (before vs Hyotei if I’m not mistaken) but I believe that one particular scene - Sakuno, Horio & their friends watching a match so seriously, and also Tezuka, who’s going to serve. (He’s looking more kakkoi too, ne?) That scene~ it’s one of the final match in Tenipuri. That’s what I believe but I can only confirm this after watching till the end. ^-^ After watching the clip, I really wanted to write down those feelings at that time. So, here what it is now… even though I can’t express well yet. -_-;; Mada mada dane? Heehe~
     Tomorrow, there will be a Japan Educational Fair in KL’s Mid Valley. Unfortunately I can’t go. Reasons? Transportation, on the next day, Sun. I had an important lesson to attend & I’ll need to rush back to Ipoh if I go there. Also the last will be - I don’t think I’m ready for it too. Well, its okay I still can search for another way without going to that Edu Fair. The Japanese Speech Contest is on tomorrow night too, and probably can’t go either because my mom is mumbling again, saying that going alone there is dangerous. -_-;; No comments… But anyway, I’m glad yesterday’s bad luck is gone & I’m back to my normal self. Maybe it’s because I get to see my prince(s) again? ^^ Sou desuka…
     Hai, I’ll end here now. Time is 3.59am. Very tired, but I’ll stay up for the whole night I think. Today, maybe tomorrow too. This holiday isn’t really a holiday for me, so terrible. F6 life is killing~ u_u *sigh*
     **Today’s post title is kinda special - "No Title". I’ve chosen that as there’s too much title suit to put in. So that’s the best choice. ^^ Till then~ Jya!